Dreams Can Be Revealing
Have you noticed how sometimes your sub-conscious tries to tell you something in a dream?
I had my last drink now five years ago, and I can tell you, it seems that the real truth of what I’m thinking and feeling about myself comes out at night. By banning alcohol from my life, it seems my attitude has shifted from hubris and overall superiority all the way down to humility and a complete absence of hypocrisy. A new alertness has come over me.
But it did not happen all at once.
My transformation started with a dream, which I remember vividly. Let me try to recall it here for you.
A massive battleship fueled by a colossal reactor engine cuts through the ocean. Somehow, I just know that it’s the world’s largest destroyer and it’s tried-and-true invincible.
Then, out of nowhere, the war cruiser is hit mid-ship by a ridiculously small torpedo the size of a Cuban cigar.
The ship is so large that, at first, the hit goes unnoticed, with just a light tremble rippling up and down the five gargantuan decks of the superstructure.
Eventually, a sailor notices a small hull breach, but he hesitates for a moment before reporting it, as he does not wish to be ridiculed.
Normal operations are barely disturbed as the crew executes the emergency procedure for this type of minor incident. The ship itself seems to mock this poor attempt at a threat and only reluctantly can be made to slow down, as if it has a mind of its own.
After swift repairs, the captain confidently gives the command from the bridge to resume cruising speed, and the warship accelerates until it again cuts through the waves at an amazing one hundred knots.
Nothing happens for hours.
But then, the pipes with engine-cooling water unexpectedly show leakage and must be shut down. As a consequence, the core of the reactor heats up until it is flaming red-hot.
Despite all panicked efforts to cool the reactor, it eventually melts down, and deadly radiation spreads out from the belly of the ship.
Everybody on board is exposed.
Instead of a green Exit sign, the word “Hubris” is displayed in red neon above the only emergency gate. There is no escape. Other vessels are hours away.
Thousands of souls are lost at sea.
This dream I had about the unsinkable ship that in the end proved to be vulnerable after all was a significant turning point because it put a big fat hole in my denial mechanism. It made me realize that I was not invincible. That I wasn’t special or immortal.
And that, in itself, helped me lose my hubris and work on a stronger recovery.
I guess the lesson here is that we should listen to our intuition. While awake, the mind agonizes over every angle of a situation, but a deeper part of you already knows what to do. When dreaming, we tap into that pool of knowing, and the truth spirals up. The challenge is to leverage that deeper instinct in everyday life and to bypass the incongruent chattering of our mind.
Keep on dreaming!
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